Maybe not the best Full Moon for trying new things...this time?
Full Moon 12⁰ Gemini: 12/3/2017 10:47 am EST:
~playfulness, curiosity, restlessness, wit, the mind~
The Moon is the closest to Earth right now, so we are REALLY feeling this one!
The mind is the part of self that thinks it knows. There are 3 main expressions of the mind:
Positive mind: "I can do it!"
Negative mind: "I’ll fail anyway."
Neutral mind: "It is what it is."
Ideally, we should have a healthy balance of all three. Check in and see what you are feeling now. Is it different from normal? Similarly, there is a past, present and future: 3 modes of time.
Ruler of Gemini, Mercury, has just only stationed retrograde hours earlier, stands still between the past and the future. We can see both forward and backward in time, standing right here. We have both perspective forward and back, and ability to be in the present. It is said that if you have anxiety, it's about the future; depression/guilt, the past; so we try to be in the present as much as we can, although we can't be there all of the time.
Despite the gifts, confusion can also arise. The mind is not used to operating this way, so it can GET LOST IN THE PROCESS.
Neptune tightly squares the Full Moon, which can muddle reality and distort our normal thought process. We might go to extremes of doubt and confidence, fantasy and fear, truth or untruth... Or, it’s a case of Divine Discontent – no matter what, it’s not enough! Neptune can also show us things we are grateful for, if we position ourselves to do so.
Lucky for us, Saturn conjoins Mercury, helping us to see clearly, remain grounded and aim to be pragmatic. However, the struggle is real right now. Neptune’s position is the strongest.
We are not seeing as clearly... yet. In a few days we will.
So for now,
Do not assume.
Follow the directions on the box.
Go with what you know.
Check your sources.
And don’t psyche yourself out too much. It’s a Super-Full Moon in Gemini and we are full of ideas and not all of them serve us!!
(and if you ARE curious enough to try something new and it doesn't go as planned, you'll be glad you gained the experience!)
May ALL the LOVE surround you!!!
“The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.”
― Joseph Campbell
Neptune Stations Direct on Wednesday, November 22nd, 2017.
Neptune stations are infamous for blurring our perception and turning us into space-cadets. We may feel spacey, groggy, sleepy or confused, and as untethered as we are, emotions will have unlimited range ─ and that could spell trouble for some of us... at least, at first.
Over the past month, Pandora's box has been opened, releasing secrets into the world regarding sexual misconduct, initiating an unraveling of magnificent proportion. Women (and men) have been unpacking a history of trauma, violation and shame on a personal and collective level, stemming back to the very roots of patriarchal conditioning. We are going deep and we are determined to heal.
For many of us, the thing that we shoved down inside us to deal with later is now bubbling up to the surface.
The shadow's emergence is reflected by Jupiter's transit through Scorpio, serving as a magnifying glass into our psyche. Neptune's station trines Jupiter in Scorpio, further enlarging these feelings.
This past weekend's New Moon in Scorpio doubled down on our ability to see our subconscious and unconscious operations. Scorpio rules our primal urges and instincts that are not easily tamed by the conscious mind. And with a rough square from Mars and Pluto, feelings such as anger, aggression, viciousness, and competition were obvious side effects. Conversely, I witnessed great strides in healing this week.
Neptune's ability to highlight the subjective experience
may HELP US to understand our feelings and reactions
that have been coming up.
Allow the spaciness. You don't HAVE to been anything right now. Get in touch with these feelings.
Float, listen to music, encourage introspection with evocative films, artwork and poetry. This is an excellent time to really pay attention to your dreams, as they can be extra vivid at this time; stay with them upon waking. What was the message? Who/what did you see? Look it up in your dream dictionary.
Use this week to gain greater insight of your own psyche. The only thing you have to do is allow.
What feelings have been coming up for me?
For me, it's been anger ─ I've been unusually reactive to small things! So now I'm exploring why.
I've noticed people posting things like “this isn’t usually me… I can usually move past this, but today I can’t…”
For the time being, our conscious mind has taken more of a backseat, allowing our subsoncsous and unconsciuous to have their say. Perhaps it's healthy for them to speak aloud sometimes, instead of constantly running in the background beyond our immediate awareness. When you can identify these feelings, then you've found your gift.
The good news is that we are moving forward.
Neptune stations direct, but before we actually begin to move forward, we may first feel stuck, even hopeless. This is where our feelings can deceive us. Neptune is the master of illusion, so the shadow monsters may seem humongous.
If this is you, remember that YOU'VE GOT THIS. Surround yourself with your support system, and most importantly have compassion for yourself. Neptune always enhances our empathy for ourselves and others. On a positive end, Neptune offers us an ideal to strive toward; we are given the capacity to serve, surrender, and sacrifice. Neptune gives us HOPE.
So no matter how you are feeling, use this period to go deeper within to gain more insight on your own psyche. To see, is the gift. Use any muck as fertilizer to grow a healing vision for the world, so that we may relinquish our discontent. Together we can.
“Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all.”
― Emily Dickinson
Infinite Love and Healing to us all,
I know this image jogs your memory... Driving to Blockbuster, scanning aisles and aisles of VHS tapes, the smell of butter popcorn and the thrill of renting your very first rated "R" movie. Ahh, it's nice to recall.
As I ponder the nature of Mercury retrograde and it's ill reputation, I remember the phrase,
"Be Kind, Rewind;" and realize how true it is that we should gift ourselves a pause. It's indeed a precious time to process, integrate, and reflect on all that has happened in our lives in the past three months. Mercury goes retrograde approximately every 3 months for about 3 weeks. This is almost seasonal! So why the stigma?
One manifestation of Mercury is the Trickster. We are reminded not to take things so seriously and to slow the fuck down. Of course it's annoying when things get lost in translation, emails disappear into thin air and we misplace things we need. Even worse, when you drop your new phone and the screen cracks. What I urge you to explore when the joke is on you, is what is the deeper message? Maybe it's simply to slow down. Or maybe you shouldn't be on your phone so much.
The IRONY is that the usual function of Mercury is PRODUCTIVITY,
and obsessively gathering INFORMATION (Virgo and Gemini, respectively).
I recently came across this Instagram post, which seems to sum of the balance of Mercurial function.
Our society puts an emphasis on being "busy," hard-working and productive. But many of us are beginning to ask why?
How healthy is it to be constantly jam-packing our schedules? Is that any way to live?
With Mercury representing the mental function, and the inherent nature of routinely retrograding backward, it seems to confirm this very suggestion: that "rest, recovery and reflection" are integral pieces of everything else we do.
So this Mercury retrograde, don't berate yourself for being "lazy," and simply "be kind, rewind."
Who knew there was so much wisdom on a VHS sticker.
Mercury Retrograde in Sagittarius:
This is a big deal because Saturn is wrapping up its 3-year stay in Sag, which began in January of 2015.
Saturn officially leaves the fiery philosophical sign on December 19th and enters Capricorn.
With Sagittarius ruling beliefs, law, foreigners and religion, we've seen:
Saturn usually emphasizes fear, limits, and aims to protect. Walls can be supportive, but also oppressive, depending on how they are constructed. If you are a Sagittarius, the last 3 years have probably been challenging, but if you've kept up, the work you've done will be immensely rewarding later on. That's the nature of Saturn.
What have the past 3 years been like for you? Has your understanding of other cultures grown with effort or have you closed off? How has your worldview changed, or what about your relationship with spirituality?
Below, I will explore the area of prominence relative to your Sun sign for December's Mercury retrograde. Bear in mind that this is also where Saturn has been helping you develop through initial limitation and eventual significant maturity and growth. Thus, this Mercury retrograde may be a chance to review what you've learned in the past 3 years.
Mercury officially stations
retrograde on December 3rd,
(2:34 am EST) at 29⁰ Sagittarius,
travelling backward until
December 22nd, (8:51 pm EST) stationing direct at 13⁰ Sagittarius.
Aries: What do I believe? With all the "fake news" out there, you must decide for yourself. Not based on what anyone's told you, but based on experiences. You've probably been confronted by your beliefs in some way, forcing you to either fight for them or change. You may return to a spiritual practice or study of some kind. How has your world view changed in the past 3 years? You may have committed yourself to your education. If you had difficulty, rest assured that 2019 will bring more freedom in this area of higher learning and understanding of other cultures.
Taurus: Who can I trust? Previous experiences of shame and let downs contrast with strength and overcoming obstacles. What is the mantra that has helped you overcome your challenges in life? You may have grown a lot in the past 3 years, gaining financial independence and stability. You can trust yourself, that's for sure! But you want to be able to let others in now too, so how do you know who is deserving of your most intimate thoughts? Look how much you've grown. Who can hold the space for the total raw beauty of who you are?
Gemini: You might hear from an old friend or lover. What's the message? If you are thinking of them, they are probably thinking of you, so don't be shy and make the connection. The theme here is partnership. What have you learned in the area of relating with others over the past 3 years? Your philosophy of what makes a partnership may have been challenged, realizing it takes a bit more work than what you were used to. What did your partner(s) teach you? What is the new outlook?
Cancer: You've probably been dealing with a reoccurring health issue and now you are just ready to be done dealing with it! This final period can be useful for summing up all of the clues and healing experiences you've gained over the past 3 years. Now you have a tool kit to squash the issue once and for all or to manage it with greater ease. Check out Louise Hay, if you haven't already. Maybe you've been working your ass off. What's the philosophy you have about work/routine? Has it changed over the past few years?
Leo: You feel like you haven't been able to have as much fun, for whatever reason, but luckily this will change when you begin to make time for deliberate play. Maybe your child has needed extra attention, or maybe it was something else. This may have been a period of slight depression, but maybe by now you have developed tools or mantras to help dig yourself out of a rut as needed. Sometimes the lows make us appreciate the highs. What can you do to intentionally bring more joy moving forward?
Virgo: This has been a potent seeding of a new beginning. What is your vision and what are you blossoming into? A new core set of values has taken root and you see your direction clearly. You may have moved recently, which may have been some sort of exchange of freedom and maturity. Maybe you bought a house and realized that you need things like leaf-blowers and plumbers. What is going on with your family? It's taught you a lot. Now you get to assimilate what all of this means and use it as plant food.
Libra: You've been finding your place in your community. How much involvement and where? You've been gaining confidence in voicing your ideas and insights as you are challenged to integrate yourself in your locality. In order to strengthen your stance, you may have been busy reading or committed yourself to learning something new. What's been going on with your siblings? Have they grown up a lot or had challenges of their own? If so, how does that affect you?
Scorpio: The focus for you has been finances. Working, saving, spending. All of it. Perhaps you suddenly had to spend a lot of money that you didn't foresee, imploring you to focus more on saving. This also helps you to mature your own sense of value. What's more important to you now, in terms of priorities? This also helps you decide what's worth your time and how you make choices accordingly. This Mercury retrograde might present a final test, so you especially will want to watch the temptation to make impulse purchases!
Sagittarius: Identity and self-awareness; Who am I and what am I working toward? Beginning a new cycle around purpose, although purpose may not be clear yet. This marks a period of self-exploration and purging the old order. Mercury retrograde helps to assimilate all experiences in the past 3 years before redefining value system and investing in new venture. The past 3 years were about pruning the old, outgrown ways of being. You may have gotten rid of belongings or lost weight. Do you have a name for this chapter?
Capricorn: You may experience the resurfacing of old energies. What is your subconscious telling you? Write down your dreams and have the courage to explore the signs you are seeing. Are you seeing repetitive numbers or words that stick out to you? Explore these symbols further, as the universe speaks to us in codes. This might be a particularly reclusive 3 weeks for you, so if you have lower energy, don't feel bad about it. Journal, meditate and practice self-care.
Aquarius: What is the vision that is coming back to you? You might recall a hope for the world you used to hold dearly and something rekindles the fire. A theme of groups and friends suggests that there is either a back-and forth ongoing, or you might rejoin a group you used to be a part of. Reflect on your affiliations. Then what will you do?
Pisces: What's my place in the world? What have my efforts amounted to? What does it all even mean and how do my accomplishments make me feel? Pat yourself on the back and now contemplate what your next move will be? You will eventually need to expand your network which can be intimidating for someone who prefers privacy, like you. So first, you'll want to do some necessary reflection. You might do this will a role-model in mind, or perhaps a parent.
Again, Saturn is all about maturity. This Mercury retrograde may offer you a final test or maybe even a gift. But at the very least, an affirmation of what you've learned from Saturn's travels through Sagittarius.
Jupiter and Venus, the two most luminous planets in the sky join together on the morning of November 13th, just before sunrise in the eastern sky. Trust me, you're not gonna want to miss this. So get up early and cast your sleepy eyes on this magnificent ball of light. The two planets will be so close to each other, that their auras appear to merge.
Why is this so unique? Declination. Venus and Jupiter conjoin every year, but for one, we can't always see it. For two, they might both arrive at the same zodiacal degree, but they might be far apart in terms of north and south in the sky. However, this time Venus and Jupiter will conjoin at the same degree of declination AND of the zodiac. Truly a spectacular sight, and assumed to be the same celestial phenomenon known as the Star of Bethlehem.
Pay attention! Remain alert to the subtle sensations in your body as you move through your day on November 15th.
You'll get a clue as to what your Mercury Retrograde story will be about.
No, it hasn't happened yet, but the "dread" might begin to sink in.
Mercury retrogrades are excellent times to go back and review, re-do, revisit, realize, remember...
We can't always crusade forward.
There is so much value in reflection... realization.
Mercury begins retrograde motion in Sagittarius on December 3rd, appearing to move backward in the sky until December 21st. But because the Trickster retraces his steps, it is where he is on this day that marks where he eventually returns to. So again, pay attention to clues and take note of possible themes.
Thursday, November 9th: Power becomes a theme as the Sun and Pluto connect. Check in with your solar plexus. Are you standing tall enough? Or perhaps your voice booms over everyone else. Are you a leader who encourages everyone's unique gifts or do you outshine the rest? Have you toned it down too much for fear of your own luminosity? Notice if you aren't speaking your truth clearly enough. The Moon is in Leo, which encourages authentic expression. It's an energized, chatty day filled to the brim with warmth, so go ahead and give it a try.
Friday, November 10th, claim your crown; step into your birth right. Seek joy. Wrap up and release the old way.
Saturday, November 11th, complete the secret pact with your higher self. Juno finally conjoins Pluto. This has to do with loyalty and commitment to something empowering, or strengthening. What are you committing to now that promises to elevate you in some form? At what means are you willing to go to achieve this? Sometimes we must let something else die, which is not always easy. With Pluto, you KNOW deep down what must be done.
Speaking of transformation and growth, today is the final exact trine of Saturn and Uranus. These two have been in and out of formation all year, encouraging us to update the outworn aspects of the current order: moving toward renewable energy, inclusiveness of individuality, technological breakthroughs. Let's see if we hear anything from Elon Musk today!
The last time that these two outer planets formed into an exact trine was May 19th 2017. Looking back, we already see some of these themes reemerging:
Sunday, November 12th: why are you so spaced out this morning? Blame Neptune or admit you had too much fun last night! Snuggle on the couch or get your booty into a downward dog and float to the front of your mat. Keyword, f l o a t.
Remember to wake up early tomorrow morning to see the luminous Venus/Jupiter conjunction.
Monday, November 13th, today could be a deeply sensitive and introspective day. Not only is the day influenced by an irritable edge from Saturn (nothing seems to go as planned!), but the marriage of Venus and Jupiter in Scorpio brings up more issues around sex, intimacy and themes therein of healing and wounding.
Essentially, more shit emerges that we purposely swept under the rug. Why do we need to talk about this? Because if we don't address it, it's going to fester and mutate into something even harder to make sense of. Where have you felt violated, humiliated or embarrassed? This is an excellent time to seek the help of a professional to help us rewrite the story. We all have wounds and traumas of varying forms, so we shouldn't have to carry the shame. Talk about it.
This combo has magnificent healing powers, so tune in if you'd like! Excellent for sex, intimacy and deep convos with friends. Expect the mood to brighten by the day's end, but don't expect to have all the answers. As I mentioned previously, Neptune is blurring the lines of reality and it's hard to see clearly. Thus, the instincts of Scorpio kick in. Instincts are the (mostly) unconscious urges and reactions that we have- so with the themes of cars driving into crowds, I'd be watchful today (and sadly, I can't not mention this). Instinct is our very first primal language of survival. Honor the feeling.
Tuesday, November 14th, Moon in Libra wants to debate this evening. Healthy sparring with your mates. Watch a sports game, play poker or hit the gym after work.
Wednesday, November 15th, there might be some excitement as the day begins to wrap up, but tonight's an evening to be sensible. You've had enough fun. Make dinner, meditate, read, go to bed.
Thursday, November 16th, Love is in the air! Maybe it's the cold weather encouraging us to move in closer. Or maybe it's just this tumultuous world which urges us to choose at least one person to trust. Love fully. Engage. Go deeper together. Weave your own fairytale. How does the story go? Venus trines Neptune, which has the power to move you emotionally. Think of your best friend's wedding vows, or a baby smiling at their mother. But Venus is in Scorpio, so again, it could also be a Haunted House that you paid $20 to experience! What's the illusion you want to see? The point is the feeling.
Friday, November 17th, say what you mean and mean what you say! Mercury sextiles Mars, imbuing passion into speech. Make a choice in direction today. How will you proceed?
Scorpio New Moon (26⁰ 11): November 18th, 6:42 am EST
This new moon offers bountiful potential for healing. It's time to shed that itchy layer of dead skin. Think of the recent discomfort as a CATALYST for growth. Scorpio is a potent sign of transformation; but often transformation has a prelude of crisis. Before that sparkly diamond landed on your finger, it was a drab piece of coal; between forms, it endured a thousand-year chrysalis period of pressure-cooking within the Earth. Change is the only constant in our lives, and Scorpio knows this intimately. To Scorpio, EVOLution and LOVE are synonymous.
It's going to be a sensitive time. Your instincts are in the forefront of your awareness, defying rationale. What are you feeling? Anger? Passion? Compulsion? You must honor your primal, intuitive knowingness, as this was your very first language. The way you first learned to perceive was not with the words which you speak. Notice the emotional and psychic impressions you receive. Logic moves to the side for now. You KNOW what must be done to move through this energy. Don't keep yourself small. Scorpio is an all or nothing sign, so you really need to go for it!
Again, this period is ripe for renewal and healing. But often there is a push, a reminder of why we do the work...
Mars, ruler of Scorpio, makes a harsh square to Pluto, amplifying compulsive behavior. I NEED TO... I MUST....
Mars is also receiving help from Saturn, expressing a readiness to build a new order. What's the new attitude that serves your highest potential and supports your growth? Even though there are some volatile energies, the emphasis is on moving forward. Sometimes a bit of agitation is necessary for change to take place, as we are seeing here in the United States.
New Moons are usually quiet periods of introspection, and the Scorpio new moon is doubly so. Allow yourself as much alone time as you need.
The degrees of 24-26 are activated, so think back to that age. What changes did you make? How did you grow?
(You can also visit the ages of 54-56.) And when in doubt, go with your gut!
Aho Mitakyue Oyasin. You are all my family.
May we all be awakened to our heart, and align our hearts together to create a
New Earth, rooted in righteousness, love, equality, abundance and compassion for all.
"Scorpio is a secretive sign.
Why? Because when a Scorpio tells everything, it usually scares the crap out of everyone around.
So Scorpio learns to hold energy in;
In fact there's a power in Scorpio, which has to do with the power of the 'hidden.'"
((1:22 am EDT, November 4th, 2017))
((10:22 pm PDT, November 3rd, 2017))
The Full Moon culminates at the 12th degree of Taurus, marking a period of rest, recharging and also pleasure. So eat, sleep and be merry in your own private world as we adjust to the weather changing and replenish our energetic reservoir.
Simultaneously, there is an energy of agitation. We want to rest, but what is making it difficult to do so?
The Ruler of Taurus, Venus, is being challenged by Uranus, indicating a feeling of limitation that we no longer wish to endure. With Uranus, there could be an urge to break free at any cost... the unrelenting desire to walk away unapologetically in the name of your truth. Particularly so for Libras and Tauruses. It might not make sense logically, but heed the call. What is making you feel stuck? Uranus is asking that we change something so that we can be more comfortable LATER.
The Sun is in Scorpio this time every year, marking a time to go within. As nature begins to "fall" away, we are reminded of the subtle, unseen forces of existence that indeed, one day everything dies. This, of course, can be deeply psychological and introspective. It's a time when we may be less social, knowing that a fun summer is behind us and a joyous holiday season before us.
However, this particular Scorpio season is a quadruple montage of Jupiter, Mercury and soon to be Venus and Mars too! Hugh Hefner died at the Pluto Station, which sparked the unraveling of a veil shrouding the legacy of both sexual liberation AND oppression. And thus the conversation began, leading to big reveals of perversion and abuse in Hollywood and even in our own personal worlds. It should be noted that Jupiter is both the magnifying glass, enlarging things so that we can improve upon, and also "the great benefic." That's right, he's supposed to be like Santa Claus, bringing lots of gifts and blessings. And he is, but first we must see the things we've been sweeping under the rug.
Pandora’s box has been opened and now there’s no looking back.
It may feel like you are lost right now. Things have welled up to the surface for you to see.
The good news is that your path may soon become more clear.
We can't see it right now because Jupiter is "under the beams" of the Sun. AKA, when an object is too close to the Sun, we can't see it. As the month of November goes on, we will receive more clarity on what to do next.
* * * *
“You enter the forest
at the darkest point,
where there is no path.
Where there is a way or path,
it is someone else's path.
You are not on your own path.
If you follow someone else's way,
you are not going to realize
― Joseph Campbell, The Hero's Journey: Joseph Campbell on His Life & Work
Aho Mitakyue Oyasin. May Mother Earth and all her inhabitants be awakened to our unity, and the highest LOVE of the Universe.
Love, peace and unity to ALL....
Catherine Urban, Astrologer
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